Expectations are tricky things. They show up in so many ways, and often we don’t even know that they are there.

We have expectations for ourselves.

We have expectations for other people. Or expectations of how people are going to react when we do or say anything. 

There are expectations that we carry that others have placed on us, or maybe even just that we perceive they have.

When expectations are missed or unmet I end up frustrated. Frustrated I can’t do it or can’t do it well. Frustrated I failed. Frustrated with myself and then frustrated with myself for being frustrated. 

I’ve learned a ton about letting go of expectations. Often of the ones I’m holding for myself. 

Leadership has brought a new level and a relearning of this. I’m now leading a group of people. A group of people with their own set of expectations for themselves and for me. Or maybe it’s even just me perceiving that there are expectations. Ones I feel I can’t reach. 

I’m learning to let these go. To just be. To be present and love well. To simply listen to the Lord and be obedient. Because success simply looks like obedience. 

There’s so much freedom in not holding tightly to expectations of others. There’s so much freedom in simply being who I’m created to be and trusting that my obedience is enough. It’s not about what I do. 

Also, there’s all the grace. There’s grace when I’m frustrated with myself. There’s grace when I’m frustrated with others. There’s grace when I fail. 

G Squad is a squad of grace. They have shown up and shown me this over and over.

So here’s to reassessing expectations. Or better yet just letting go of them completely. Giving them to Jesus because he already took them to the cross anyway. 

With love,

Kayla 

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